I Love the way you Hold Me

If you didn't know I just deleted my Facebook. This has been a long processes of deciding what's important to me and hearing everyone talk about how facebook is turning people into non social creatures and becoming it's only world. I decided to get rid of mine because I noticed how addicted I was I mean seriously! When I turned on my computer up went the facebook. It didn't matter that there weren't any notifications. As long as I could stare at my profile and wait for someone to comment on my newly developed photos or status. Geez! That's so narcissistic! So I really needed to end it. Cold Turkey and all. I wouldn't be able to ween off if i tried. I think I only got one applaud on this matter. Thank You Austin (=! And it wasn't if he didn't questioned my decision at first but at least he accepted my choice and applauded me for it. Not only that but I've just realized how deceitful and impure I've become. At least you begin to feel that way when you spend most of your evening's glue to Dexter. Watching a Serial Killer kill, cuss, and have sex isn't exactly glorifying. So I stopped watching that also.God's grace is amazing! really he has shown me so much mercy and unconditional love. Last weekend was wonderful! I went to the beach and I hung out with amazing friends! They really are great (=. But I wasn't exactly excited about the sermon they had planned. I learn so much from them and I get such a thrill sharing ideas and opinions. They are really wonderful people. Romans 1 :11-12 "For I long to visit you so I can bring you some spiritual gift that will help you grow strong in the Lord. When we get together, I want to encourage you in your faith, but I also want to be encouraged by yours." These people really embody this verse. Anyway this weekend's sermon was about who I thought I was. In my opinion, I really don't give a rip if I know who I am. Is that really important? I mean I don't change who I am when I'm around other people. I react differently around different people. They know who I am to them and God knows who I am period. The thought that I should know who I am never really appealed to me. I was never one for the long journey of self discovery. I didn't really understand it. I mean I get the feeling of not feeling anything and trying to open up your senses, but I wouldn't abandon everything to go in search of inspiration. God holds all the inspiration I need. I experience things in him. The only thing that resonated with me about that sermon was who I was in God. The last question about if I were to describe the relationship God and I had over the years resulted in inspiration. Cause my life has been enduring with God. Not in a Bad way I mean. I mean through high school I stayed true with God. I resisted temptation, I said no and I stood up for Christ. I endured High school with no bodily harm or regrets. well the only regret is loosing Will as a friend but I guess that group was drowning me in general. I couldn't be free in that group. No one accepted my decisions and they thought that I was a bible thumper who was naive and stupid. None of my opinions mattered to them. I remember our reunion and i remember being shut out, stuck in the corner. I knew then that I never was loved by them. But God loves me and I want him to know that the girl that endured with him is still there and I am going after him because he makes me feel like I'm free and special.